Bouncing back to the 80s. Probably one of the most meaningful songs to me, although a contradiction.
I have never needed friends, I blink at social shit like it's an obligation, always have. I could care less how people are on the day to day, short of illness. That doesn't mean I am immune, it simply means I have no problem detaching myself from things that I deem not worth my time and emotion. Asshole-ism. I suppose I just go blank, I care but feeding that emotion when I know it's one sided makes no sense, I am not a counselor. I can give advice, perspective.... but I am no one's parent or mentor.
That said, when I do find a true kindred I am glue. I am the monkey wrapped with all legs around tightly, clinging and begging for a treat. Eternally. I don't think it's very odd to be estranged from most people, I can and do interact, but on a soulful level.... I picky. There are a handful, and I mean that.... one hand I can count them on.... I give a shit about enough to get jail time if the situation called lol. All else are moot and passing memories in the breeze. I don't think that is too uncommon, but probably some sort of diagnosis if I ever saw a therapist. Perhaps I am indeed a giraffe, we don't really "need" anyone, but it's nice if the right one introduces itself. I am grateful for those few I have. It's quite the test to get into my heart, but worth it, I'd as the lyrics say .... walk the world, and always be there........
- JM
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